This will probably be the only time on this blog that I will be completely serious. You don’t have to read this post, but I would appreciate it if you continued on.
From September 2011 to June 2012, I was a part of Literacy*AmeriCorps and served at a children’s literacy nonprofit in Pittsburgh, PA. My role was to manage a mentoring program for second and third graders at four inner city Pittsburgh public schools and be the in-school facilitator at three of them. The purpose of the mentoring program was to foster a love of reading in the students as well as provide them with one-on-one attention from a caring adult. From a demographics standpoint, 90% of students at my program schools were African American and all but one school provided free or subsidized school lunches.
How did it go for me? Imagine a young, naive Miss Lizzie stealing a troupe of second and third graders from class once a week, making them eat lunch early without any help from the cafeteria aides, telling my students that no, they couldn’t go to recess today, and finally parading them to the library to hang out with a bunch of adults and books. All of which I did while being highly caffeinated and proclaiming about how great wizards, unicorns, puppies were. “Miss Lizzie, you’re weird” was a commonly stated phrase.
They probably viewed me like this.
Courtesy of Hyperbole and a Half.
They ran circles around me at first but we eventually came to an understanding. And, on a side note, I don’t think I will ever have a professional opportunity again in which I walk into a room and hear a dozen voices cry “Miss Lizzie!” with 20 children running up to give me bear hugs.
At my smallest program, I filled in for a vacationing volunteer for a couple of weeks with a second grade boy (name withheld). He loved nonfiction, especially biographies. His class had recently learned about Jackie Robinson; so we read more about Jackie, and I listened to my buddy excitedly rattle off Jackie’s stats. It was the week before Martin Luther King, Jr. Day so I had checked out from the library several more books about civil rights leaders to add to the program book collection. My second grader next selected a picture book about Martin Luther King, Jr. himself. Suddenly, my second grader turned to me and said, “Miss Lizzie, what’s racism?”
Inwardly, I panicked – as a privileged white female who went to a nationally ranked suburban high school and attended a private Catholic university, my AmeriCorps experience was the first time my world view had shifted on its axis. How could I adequately educate this little boy about something that I, slowly realizing, was ignorant? Since I encouraged my students to ask me questions, I had to formulate some sort of respectable and thoughtful answer.
I stumbled my way through explaining the Jim Crow laws, the beginnings of the civil rights movement, and how Mr. King said that people should not be judged by the color of their skin, but by the content of their character.
Was I like this?
No.
In fact, my second grader was making this face at me:
So I ended my awkward speech by saying: “The Jim Crow laws were wrong; racism is wrong; and people know better now. I think you’re great because you’re funny and smart and really good at sports. That’s what matters. Let’s keep reading.”
I got a big smile from my second grade buddy and we then switched over to an I Spy book.
Not long after that, a teenager named Trayvon Martin walked home from a 7-11 and was shot by a neighborhood watchman, and my students never asked me what racism meant again.
Get to the point, Lizzie. I know, I know.
No, I don’t condone or support the violent protests and riots in Ferguson. Two wrongs do not make a right.
What do I think? The media slandered the characters of Trayvon Martin then and now Michael Brown. Maybe they broke rules. Maybe they did mouth off to a figure of authority and were out of line. Maybe they did react aggressively.
But you know what? They were teenage boys who were scared.
I firmly believe that there are other ways for figures of authority to neutralize a perceived threat other than by firing a gun. I think it is wrong to shoot first and ask questions later. I think it is wrong that, in our country, this statistically happens in more cases with African American young men.
This morning after reading the Missouri grand jury’s decision, I cried in the shower not only because I feel like I lied to my second grade buddy about the state of racism in our country. I mostly cried because my second grader is now in fourth grade and I fear for his safety.
That is why #FergusonMatters to me.
Last but not least, all schools were closed again in St. Louis County today because of the riots. Many of these students rely on their schools for breakfast, lunch, and after school snacks. One charity “Feed the Students of Ferguson” is addressing that need. All donations go directly to the St. Louis Area Foodbank & will be used to feed kids in Ferguson and nearby areas. To learn more, please visit: https://fundly.com/feed-the-students-of-ferguson.
Thank you for reading,
Sie Lizzie D